Polar Opposites – the end of the story

I wrote many months back about what I thought was the end of the Polar Opposites guy – except it really didn’t end there. After I wrote that story in August 2023 we started up again and I saw him for another 4 months. Our story really ended in January 2024 with him telling me he didn’t see any potential for a future with me. Would have been nice if he hadn’t wasted 8 months of my life to figure that out but that’s what happened. I finally realized that once again I settled. It was never about what I wanted, it was just my old, familiar self lapping up whatever attention I was given. I’m hopeful that I can learn my value, my worth and never settle again. I can only hope I don’t continue to repeat this pattern. This guy never treated me poorly, but I let myself take scraps of attention because its all I’ve ever known.

He’s called me a couple of times since we broke up and we’ve talked. I miss talking to him, miss the sex with him which literally was the best I ever had but it’s time for me to start seeing I’m worth more than scraps of attention. I deserve someone who is going to want to give me everything. He’s out there somewhere I just don’t know where yet.